Wednesday, April 25, 2007
something funny but disgusting thing happened yesterday...
i was searching for my old leather shoe for the interview..
after opening it out of the box, suddenly 2 cockroaches crawled out@@!!!
i jumped with disgust and went on to look for the insect spray...
i think i sprayed almost half a can on those two... then i took my shoe out...
to my horror... another one is staring back at me!!
i immediately threw the shoe away and that effing cockroach crawled out...
i sprayed on it till it died...
thats not the best part yet...
the best part is...
my shoe is filled with roach eggs!!!!! and the other shoe has small roaches crawling out..
i was like.. WHAT THE FARKKKKKKK!@@!!!
i sprayed to my hearts content on both shoesss....
to make things worse, i think the other roaches from other places had picked up a signal that their base is under attack... and out from nowhere 2 more came out...
the horror!!!!
luckily nenek is there to help me... or else... battling an army of roaches would definitely leave a dent in my psychological well being...
oh yah and not to mention, i was wearing sarong...
hahahaha... luckily none crawled up... hahahahaha
in other words,
im feeling old yet again.
im more than a quarter century old.
last year was already bad enough having the quarter century tag on me.
and the feeling of acheivement is not there yet.
what went wrong in my plans????
sighh..
needed a new plan.
and by the way, the position i applied today, is more suited for banglas with some A/V knowledge.
im not being racist or anything... but singaporeans tag hard work with bangladeshis.
small pay yet hard work.
maybe i should just take a loan and open up my own studio. and hope i break even in a year or two.
and the latest yahoo news i read is not helping my spirit and ego either.
there is a vast divide between the rich and the poor (and also a significant picture on who are the poor ones: mostly those ppl who have Jawi spelt names on their IC) in this LKY Corp SDN BHD (was reported he earns more than 3mil per year).
i pity those who cant even send their kids to school.
but then again... i was thinking that these are also the people who doesnt has the drive and initiative for success in this very competitive country. or maybe they did not have the chance or oppertunity for it.
well whatever it is, while trying to break out of the typical cycle my colour's mindset has..
i was taken aback at what im actually been doing for so long.
its unevitable that naturally, i am laid back, relax jack attitude and the envy of other's wealth and success. even though im of some sort of mix blood lineage, but still both parents malairen mah... hahaha
nenek even said that if Sinjiapok has a malairen first PM... abeslah... hancur she tell me.. the country will not be this economically strong. it would be just a teeny weeny bit above our neighbours.
maybe the enjit enjit semut song is true..
i cant escape the mim alif lam sim DNA ... and i need someone to splice out those strands of DNA from me..
SEE!@@ another malairen trait. sigh... haha need someone to do the job.
not saying every malairen is like that. i know some of my malairen friends who have the 'force'.
i respect these jedis or siths.. for they know the path of the chosen one.
they say i too can follow the path of the force.. but knowing me, i would learn the force for a bit.. learn a bit here and there and im done. hahaha. no more commitments to the force.
i know this post has been long and some paragraphs does not make sense. so i shall stop here. till then!! adios!
ps: thanx for sticking with me. i wouldnt know what to do if we grow apart.
pps: so far only 2 wishes. hehe!
ppps: im sick.
Written in Black n White,
n my watch says 11:05 PM
